stressed

school work , exams , and personal problems.
all these are killing me now.
okay not school work and exams.
at this point of time i'd rather fuck them up then to think about the problems im having now.
i dont kow what to do.

you think i dont wanna meet you everyday ?
there are like so many factors that are stopping me.
and its like .
omfg i really donno what to do.
i think im such a failure.
just fuck it okay.

let me go through this myself.
since no one will .
i will do it myself.
fuck my stressed up life.

i have a traditional mindset.
live with it.
if you cant , then i cant help much either.
im just like that.
accept or just forget.
suck it up or just live with it.
im sorry.
i wont be a great husband , boyfriend , in your eyes.
its not only what my parents are thinking ,
me too myself , i'm afraid.
i'm afraid of whatever their afraid of.
why ?
cause im just god damn traditional.

i dont know how much longer i can take this ,
everything is just piling up on me ,
i dont want to go through a breakdown ,
i just want all the problems to go away.
Please , someone , somewhere , on top ,
please , i need someone to talk to.
please , dont torture me like that ,
what have i done to deserve this ,
i know im in no right to request for anythng ,
but can i just have someone to talk to ,
somone to share my load with.