I dont know what situation i'm in ,
or what my negative over paranoid thoughts got me into .
Or maybe i'm just a failure , i don't like so many things ,
and yet i don't speak a word about it .
I guess i'm just afraid it would escalate to something worse.
I guess what you said was true , i just love you too much.
I try my best to let you do anything you want , even if its stuff i don't really like ,
or strongly against.
Like hanging out with your friends for instance ,
i just don't trust people.
It's really hard for me to entrust someone i love to someone i don't know.
And i know you guys are friends for so long and stuff ,
but i still don't trust them.
Despite all these , i still don't speak a word about it .
I actually didn't want to bring this up ,
but since i have a blog , and i have noone to talk to ,
i shall just rant here.
Even you went to his house , i didn't utter a word about it.
Okay so i'm a jealous fuck , so what , live with it.
I don't know if you talk to guys , or don't .
The truth is , i don't wanna know.
I really don't wanna know.
I wanna keep it this way , i wanna be kept in the dark ,
cause i'm afraid of the truth.
Am i just an excuse , or am i really someone.
I don't know , thats the question i ask myself everyday.
i just want to sleep , forget about the thoughts , cause its cruel , and painful.
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